Life right now, for me anyway is a lot of things. If I had to summarize it in one word: overwhelming. That sounds harsh, and to an extent it is. Sometimes I feel overwhelmed with peace, and other times I feel overwhelmed with responsibility. & that’s because I’m preparing to embark on a journey that is exciting yet very very scary.

For some background, my partner and I are in the process of moving out of our hometown for good. This is something I think we can both admit can’t come soon enough. From a young age, I knew that Florida did not hold my forever. But I needed juuuust the right thing to tell me that I was capable of leaving. *Enters Serrena*

To make a long story short, we started long distance in February. I have reluctantly decided to stay back in Florida while she is off getting a jumpstart on her new career. & to be blunt – this sucks! Sure, I’ll be joining her soon. But I don’t think either of realized how tough this would be. Or maybe we did, and denial just got the best of us. I admire her for what she is doing of course. But taking care of our home, and our kids (fur babies), myself, my job, everything all alone- it’s a lot. I didn’t realize how well we handled things together and now that we’re apart – oh jee. However, there is quite literally *no one else* that I would rather do this with. Heck, there is no one else I would do this for.

A regular day in my life looks pretty dull, to be honest. I wake up & get ready, take care of the kids, and head to work. I work a normal 8-5 desk job, which I am almost always a few minutes late to because I simply cannot pass Dunkin’ without stopping. After work, I might stop to pick up medication or see what they restocked at Marshall’s, but it isn’t long before I’m back home & getting unready before I even have a chance to process my day. If I’m lucky I’ll have enough motivation to workout, but that is few and far between these days. I mean yeah, for the time being my life is pretty mundane. Sometimes I become overwhelmed with sadness that I don’t want to live in this boring routine forever. But then I remember that it’s not forever. In fact, it’s not even for two more months. The past year and a half have been nonstop between travel, new experiences, regular life – which has all been spectacular. But it’s times like now, in this very moment that I find an overwhelming sense of calm in the boring routine. Yes, there’s that word again.

I often reflect on social media and compare my life to the lives of influencers or full time travelers or even my own peers and think wow, I wish my days looked like that. & then I take a look at my own page, which is absolutely not a reflection of my day to day life, so what exactly am I comparing? I don’t travel every weekend, I’m not always hanging out with my friends & I am surely not putting on a decent outfit every day of the week. So today, let our mantra be this:

Comparison is the thief of joy – Roosevelt

So I’m sure by now you can tell that my life is pretty ordinary. Between the everyday, I’m navigating finding a new work from home job – which almost seems impossible – and planning our big move which is coming up quickly (end of May!!). And now, blogging! Which somehow feels overwhelming, too. There is no deadline, no rubric to follow, and certainly nothing specific that I have to talk about. I guess it’s overwhelming in the sense that there is so much that I want to talk about. However, I am quick to remind myself that this blog isn’t just going to go *poof* and disappear. I have time. In fact, I have the rest of my life if I really wanted to take it that far.

I wasn’t lying when I said I had one word that could describe my life right now. In fact, I think I’m over the use of the word “overwhelming” so I may have to find a new one.. synonym maybe… Immense? It doesn’t quite hit the same…

Anyway –

I hope you choose to find peace in all of the overwhelming aspects of life and recognize that today’s routine is not a reflection of your forever.

I love you. thank you for being here.